I am in the middle of probably one of the most hellish three weeks at work. Things coming at me in all directions. Everybody needs something urgently and everybody thinks what they need is more important than what somebody else needs, etc. In our industry the work pace is fast and furious. Clients always want shit fast but accurate. There are no normal work days for me. 9-5 is not a luxury I can enjoy. In the midst of all the chaos I find myself wondering if this is it??? Is this what it has boiled down to for me??? Every morning as a boy waking up and going to school. Followed by University in my young adult years. What a wonderful little shithole I carved up for myself here. Right now I am fairly young, I am strong and I am resilient I can handle this. But what about 10 years down the line. I am not so sure anymore. Revelations about life manifest themselves in the unlikeliest situations. But that's another blog for another day.
Is this what fate had planned for me? If I believe in fate then I have recourse for all the wrong decisions and indiscretions I have committed in my life. But yet I still look at them with disdain. I guess if fate were true then I should be okay because it was all meant to happen right? Fate is an excuse. Hard to find solace in something you do not believe in. I am not really sure how and why I got here but I am pretty sure it was my fault.
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